So I wrote this elaborate post with all this back story on my dating life. Explaining in detail why from time to time I am bitter and cynical. Honestly, I guess we all are those things sometimes.

All that really matters in this story is that someone stole money from me. We met and went for a few drinks. I paid for mine, he did not and I ended up having to pay the entire tab. I didn’t have enough money and it was a very horrible situation. So not only did I have to pay the tab, the jerk also took the cash that I left for my share. He just did a bad thing.

So I came home all crazy and upset. I let myself freak out that evening and the entire next day. I decided to tell my friends and my co-worker what happened, even though it was not easy. I felt like I  needed to own what happened. And telling people was my way of doing that. I was embarrassed, but there was no reason to be.  It would have been easier to just have a quiet day, but that would be shame taking control and not me. So as annoying as it was I told everyone. I moped around all day and just let myself have my reaction. I knew that I would bounce back and feel better at some point and I also  didn’t think it would take very long. It did not, I was ok by the next morning. So I was back to normal, but it is not an experience that I will forget.

And as optimistic as I am, I just am not sure if there is a nice guy who is also attractive to me.  I am not crazy, they don’t have to be Tyson hot, but they have to at least be appealing to me.  It doesn’t seem like that is too much to ask for. So I will struggle to keep hope alive and we will see how it goes. But right now, I am not feeling to optimistic. I will keep you updated, but for right now today….guys suck!

I have to say, I do know nice guys who are attractive to me. I guess it is not just about being nice.  It is about being nice and wanting to be with me. I guess I would like to be in love again. I sometimes worry….what if I  only got that one shot…..what if it never happens again.

So some time has passed…..and I have rewritten this a few times. I am feeling much less pessimistic as time goes by. It is all sort of funny now. Things are always healing when you can start to laugh at the situation.

This is the sort of sharing that makes me feel naked. Actually, it would be easier to be naked than post this.

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